♡ Angel Autopsy (Yandere! Il Dottore x Reader x Yandere! Various! Multiverse).
♡ Word Count. 7,351 words
The first anomaly of the day was silence.
Not the absence of sound—machines still breathed, centrifuges still sang their thin, obedient whine, reagents still whispered when agitated—but the absence of you. Zandik noticed it the way a surgeon notices a missing instrument only after his hand closes on air. Not panic. Not irritation. A pause. A recalibration.
You had a routine.
That was not sentiment. That was data.
You arrived late, always late, with the same fractional delay—between three to seven minutes depending on whether you had been distracted by something trivial or something catastrophic. Your footsteps had a specific cadence: heel-first, dragging slightly, as though gravity was a personal insult.
You leaned against his doorframe without knocking, invaded sterile space with casual sacrilege, your presence contaminating the room in a way no pathogen ever could. You stood too close. You touched him without permission, fingers idly hooking into the seam of his coat, resting your forehead against his shoulder, warmth bleeding through layers of fabric engineered to resist it.
You were a constant.
Constants were useful.
Constants were controllable.
Except you were not here.
Zandik did not look at the door. He did not pause the dissection. His scalpel traced a precise incision along the cadaver’s sternum, splitting tissue with the same elegance he applied to hypotheses.
The body on the table—a former scholar, mid-thirties, malnourished, adrenal cortex hypertrophied from chronic stress—offered no resistance. Flesh always yielded. That was one of the few reliable truths of existence.
You did not.
The second day passed without you.
On the third, he adjusted his expectations.
That was rational behavior.
One does not mourn the absence of a variable. One accounts for it.
He reviewed footage.
Cameras installed for security, for documentation, for contingency—never for voyeurism, despite what lesser minds might assume. He accelerated playback at sixteen times speed, tracking your movements across corridors you now traversed less frequently.
When you did appear, you were no longer alone.
Alhaitham’s presence registered immediately.
It was not subtle.
He had stopped pretending it was accidental.
Zandik noted the way Alhaitham positioned himself half a step closer to you than necessary, the way his body angled in mild obstruction whenever Zandik’s line of sight aligned too directly with yours. Subtle refined hostility, indeed—polite, intellectual, curated to remain socially acceptable while still functioning as territorial behavior.
Primitive.
Predictable.
Annoying.
You did not react.
That, too, was data.
You allowed yourself to be redirected, your trajectory altered by schedules, committees, festival preparations. You allowed your time to be occupied, your attention diverted. You no longer drifted into Zandik’s laboratory on instinct.
You no longer appeared at his side like a stray particle drawn into orbit.
The orbit had been disrupted.
Zandik adjusted his models.
He told himself—accurately—that irritation was an imprecise term. What he experienced was inconvenience. The interruption of an ongoing study. The contamination of longitudinal data. He had not finished with you.
He had barely begun.
You were an anomaly.
An elegant one.
Your baseline affect registered as flat—affective blunting consistent with depersonalization or chronic dissociation. Pupillary response within normal limits, yet your gaze often unfocused, as though your attention resided elsewhere. Neurological scans—those he had obtained under the guise of routine assessment—showed no gross abnormalities. No lesions. No tumors. No obvious cause.
And yet.
Your autonomic responses were wrong.
Heart rate variability too controlled. Cortisol response inconsistent with observed stressors. Pain thresholds fluctuating not along predictable nociceptive pathways but according to variables he could not yet isolate. You healed too cleanly. Your blood chemistry remained stable even under conditions that should have induced imbalance.
You were alive in a way that defied biology.
Zandik found that fascinating.
He found it dangerous.
He found it unacceptable to leave unfinished.
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On the fourth day, he noticed the absence of your touch.
That realization came unbidden, during a procedure requiring absolute concentration. His hands paused—just briefly—hovering above exposed viscera, the patient’s thoracic cavity open like a confession. His mind supplied the phantom sensation of your weight leaning against him, your fingers warm at his wrist, your head resting where it did not belong.
He severed a nerve slightly off-target.
The error was minor. Correctable.
Unacceptable.
He corrected it immediately, flooded the field with saline, adjusted sutures, erased evidence of the lapse with surgical precision. Still, the fact remained: an unknown variable had intruded upon his cognitive process.
That variable was you.
Or rather, your absence.
He categorized the sensation ruthlessly.
Habituation.
Nothing more.
The human brain adapted to repeated stimuli. Remove the stimulus, and the system flagged the discrepancy. There was no emotional component required. He did not miss you. He merely noted that your removal altered the baseline environment to which he had unconsciously calibrated.
Yes.
That was the explanation.
He accepted it because it was logical.
And because any alternative was inefficient.
He began observing you more closely.
From a distance.
You moved differently now. Not changed—redirected. Your path intersected Alhaitham’s far more frequently than before. You were present at gatherings you had previously ignored, festivals you had once mocked, meetings you had once slept through with your head on a table. You stood beside Alhaitham while he spoke, your expression unchanged, eyes half-lidded, detached.
You laughed once.
It was soft. Brief. Real.
Zandik paused the footage.
Replayed it.
Again.
Your laughter triggered no corresponding microexpressions of joy. No elevation in cheek muscles sustained beyond the sound itself. It was an action without affect. A response without internal alignment.
A mask.
You wore many.
He suspected none of them were necessary.
He began compiling hypotheses.
Hypothesis One: Alhaitham represented a stabilizing force, providing structure that redirected your otherwise erratic proximity to Zandik.
Counterargument: You did not seek stability. You tolerated it.
Hypothesis Two: You were deliberately distancing yourself due to perceived threat assessment.
Counterargument: You did not perceive Zandik as a threat. If you had, you would have acted. You were capable of decisive violence without emotional interference. He had seen the data.
Hypothesis Three: External manipulation.
That one held.
Alhaitham was not subtle, but he was intelligent. He recognized Zandik as a destabilizing element. He sought to remove you from Zandik’s influence under the pretense of collaboration and obligation.
Protective behavior.
How tedious.
Zandik did not resent Alhaitham.
Resentment implied emotional investment.
He merely cataloged him as an obstacle.
Obstacles were removed or repurposed.
He returned to his work with renewed intensity.
If you could not be observed in proximity, you would be observed in absence.
He reviewed tissue samples from previous experiments—human subjects exposed to prolonged isolation, to controlled deprivation, to variable affection withdrawal. The results were consistent: psychological destabilization, elevated cortisol, eventual cognitive degradation.
You exhibited none of that.
Your metrics remained unchanged.
Which meant one of two things.
Either you were unaffected.
Or you were compensating.
Compensation mechanisms fascinated him.
He tested a proxy.
A subject with similar dissociative markers. He introduced a variable—consistent tactile reinforcement—then removed it abruptly. The subject deteriorated within forty-eight hours. Sleep disturbances. Hallucinations. Self-harm.
Messy.
Predictable.
You did not deteriorate.
Which meant you were not dependent.
Which meant Zandik had been mistaken.
Or—
You had replaced the stimulus.
That possibility irritated him more than it should have.
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On the sixth day, you passed him in the corridor.
You did not stop.
Your shoulder brushed his coat—accidental, negligible—but you did not lean in, did not hook your fingers into fabric, did not look up at him with that absent curiosity that had become routine.
You smelled the same.
Your vitals—judged by gait, posture, skin tone—were unchanged.
Yet something had shifted.
Zandik turned slowly, watching you retreat down the corridor toward Alhaitham, who waited for you without pretense now. The proximity was deliberate. Public.
A display.
Zandik’s fingers flexed.
He recorded the reaction.
Increased muscle tension. Mild sympathetic activation. No spike in heart rate. No adrenaline surge. Controlled.
Good.
Control was intact.
He reminded himself: you were his experiment.
Not in the crude sense. Not ownership. Not possession.
You were a phenomenon.
A living contradiction.
A phenomenon disguised as human flesh, though he would never use such an imprecise term. He preferred outlier.
Singularity.
Biological impossibility.
He still had unanswered questions.
Your cellular regeneration suggested non-standard mitotic regulation. Telomere length inconsistent with chronological age. Immune response anomalously selective. You resisted pathogens while ignoring injuries that should have triggered inflammatory cascades.
You were not fragile.
You were not mortal.
And worst of all—
You were not attached.
That made you volatile.
A passive constant that could backfire catastrophically if mishandled.
Zandik revised his contingency plans.
Plan A: Reintegration. Reintroduce controlled proximity. Observe response. Risk: Alhaitham interference.
Plan B: Isolation. Remove you from competing variables. Risk: unpredictable reaction.
Plan C: Termination.
He did not dwell on that one.
Not because of hesitation.
Because it was inefficient.
You were too valuable.
Too rare.
Too unfinished.
He required more data.
He required you.
As a subject.
Nothing more.
And yet, when the lab lights dimmed and the machines continued their tireless respiration, Zandik found himself recalibrating schedules not for optimal efficiency—but for the slim probability that you might return to your routine.
He dismissed the thought immediately.
Routines could be rebuilt.
Anomalies could not.
He would not allow unknown variables to disrupt his future plans.
Not you.
Not anyone.
And if Alhaitham believed distance would protect you—
Zandik almost smiled.
Protection was an illusion.
Observation always won.
And you, whether you drifted back of your own accord or were retrieved through necessity, would be observed again.
Extensively.
Rationally.
Until every secret beneath your skin had been mapped, measured, and rendered harmless.
Or useful.
Possibly both.
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The monitors did not blink.
Zandik preferred it that way—continuous feed, no courtesy interruptions, no artificial pauses to suggest privacy where none should exist. Observation required persistence. Intermittence bred blind spots. Blind spots bred variables. Variables ruined everything.
You occupied three screens simultaneously.
One above his primary workstation showed the exterior corridor outside the administrative wing, wide-angle distortion bending space subtly at the edges.
Another captured the interior of a lecture hall from a ceiling-mounted camera meant for “security,” though its true function was archival.
The third—his preferred—was not a camera at all, but a live biometric overlay compiled from indirect data sources: gait analysis, micro-expression mapping, thermal differentials, probabilistic modeling of your internal states extrapolated from movement alone.
He worked while watching you.
Not multitasking. That implied divided attention. This was layered cognition—parallel processing. While his hands calibrated a neural perfusion pump, while his eyes tracked reagent viscosity under polarized light, another part of him cataloged you with mechanical patience.
Day Seven without lab visitation.
Noted.
You sat with your legs folded beneath you on a stone ledge, chin resting in your palm, posture lazy to the point of insult. Your eyes were half-lidded, unfocused, drifting between the movement of festival workers and nothing at all. You looked bored.
You were always bored.
Boredom, Zandik had concluded, was not an absence of stimulation for you but an excess. The world failed to meet your threshold. You existed perpetually under-stimulated, forced to endure reality the way one endured a poorly designed interface.
He made a note.
Behavioral Pattern 41-A: Subject exhibits chronic disengagement from environmental stimuli; boredom likely adaptive rather than pathological.
Hypothesis: baseline cognitive activity exceeds external complexity.
Alhaitham entered the frame.
Of course he did.
Zandik did not shift his posture. He did not lean closer to the screen. He simply allowed the data stream to incorporate the new variable. Alhaitham’s approach vector was predictable—no wasted motion, no hesitation. He occupied space efficiently, positioning himself close enough that their shoulders nearly touched.
Nearly.
You did not move away.
Noted.
Alhaitham spoke. The microphones did not pick up his words clearly, but his cadence was even, controlled. You responded with minimal movement—head tilt, slight exhale through the nose, the barest hint of a smile that never reached your eyes.
Intimacy without display.
Zandik adjusted the zoom.
Your knee brushed Alhaitham’s thigh.
Not accidental.
Your foot hooked briefly around his ankle.
Casual.
Familiar.
Zandik’s stylus paused against the digital tablet for 0.6 seconds.
He resumed writing.
Observation: Subject demonstrates physical familiarity with Alhaitham exceeding normative platonic thresholds. Frequency increased over last 72 hours. No overt affective markers consistent with romantic infatuation.
Hypothesis: utilitarian intimacy or comfort-based association.
He did not label it jealousy.
Jealousy was irrational.
This was contamination.
The experiment was no longer isolated.
He turned his attention briefly to the body on the slab beside him—a donor acquired through channels that did not ask questions. Male, late forties, history of chronic alcoholism. The liver was cirrhotic, nodular, a landscape of failed regeneration. Zandik incised with care, fingers steady, mind elsewhere.
He thought of contamination.
How a single foreign cell could alter an entire culture.
How antibiotics lost efficacy when introduced improperly.
How ecosystems collapsed when invasive species were allowed to propagate unchecked.
Alhaitham was an invasive species.
You shifted on the screen, leaning closer to Alhaitham now, your head resting briefly against his shoulder. Your eyes closed.
Zandik annotated the timestamp.
Note: Subject displays trust behavior.
Duration: 4.2 seconds.
No defensive reflexes observed. Pupillary response minimal—suggests comfort or indifference rather than emotional reliance.
He cross-referenced it with previous data.
When you leaned against him—against Zandik—the duration was longer. The contact more careless. You touched him without thought, as one touched furniture or gravity.
You trusted him without knowing why.
That had been… useful.
Alhaitham placed a hand on your back.
Zandik’s scalpel slid deeper than intended.
The cadaver did not protest.
Blood pooled, dark and viscous, the scent metallic and familiar. He adjusted suction, corrected the angle, restored order. His heart rate did not change.
Control remained absolute.
He looked back at the screen.
Alhaitham’s hand lingered.
You did not react.
That, too, was data.
Conclusion (Preliminary): Subject permits physical contact selectively. Tolerance does not equate to attachment. Attachment metrics remain indeterminate.
He began outlining removal protocols.
Not immediately.
Premature intervention skewed results.
He required a controlled stressor.
A test.
If Alhaitham were removed abruptly, your reaction would provide valuable insight into your loyalty parameters. Would you pursue? Would you retaliate? Would you remain inert?
Each outcome was informative.
Each could be corrected.
Zandik preferred correction over elimination.
Correction implied potential.
Elimination was wasteful.
He opened a secondary file—Contingency Branch Theta—and began populating it with variables.
Alhaitham’s schedule. His research dependencies. His social leverage. His psychological profile: introverted, rigid, moralistic under the guise of rationality. Predictable responses to perceived injustice. Likely to resist manipulation overtly but vulnerable to ethical dilemmas.
Useful.
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Zandik adjusted a camera feed to a more private location.
You in your quarters.
You lay sprawled across your bed, limbs unceremoniously tangled, still wearing the same clothes from earlier. You stared at the ceiling, eyes unfocused, one hand absently tracing patterns into the fabric beside you.
Alone now.
Your expression did not change.
No sigh of longing.
No restless movement.
You existed as you always did—self-contained.
Zandik magnified the feed.
Your breathing was slow. Even. Too even.
Physiological Note: Respiratory rhythm suggests meditative or dissociative state. Subject capable of entering low-arousal modes without external guidance.
You rolled onto your side, curling slightly, one knee drawn up. Your fingers twitched once, as though grasping at something that was not there.
Zandik zoomed further.
The twitch did not repeat.
He marked it anyway.
He considered the implications.
If Alhaitham were removed and you displayed no reaction, the obstacle would be confirmed as extraneous. Removal could proceed without concern.
If you reacted unfavorably—anger, withdrawal, resistance—then the behavior would require adjustment. Conditioning. Reorientation.
You were not exempt from correction.
No one was.
He returned to his work, adjusting electrode placement on the donor’s exposed cortex. The experiment involved mapping residual neural activity post-mortem—how long consciousness echoes lingered after declared death. He found it intriguing.
Life always overstayed its welcome.
You sat up suddenly on the screen.
Your head turned toward the door.
Someone knocked.
Alhaitham again.
Zandik watched as you opened the door without hesitation, stepping aside to let him in. He carried something—food, perhaps. You accepted it without comment, returning to the bed, gesturing for him to sit.
Domestic.
Intimate.
Zandik’s notes grew denser.
Hypothesis Revision: Subject tolerates Alhaitham as a stabilizing presence during periods of enforced separation from primary observation site. Relationship may be situational rather than preferential.
He closed the file momentarily and leaned back, hands clasped, eyes still on the screen.
You laughed again.
This time it lasted longer.
Still hollow.
Still wrong.
He felt no anger.
Only resolve.
Variables would be isolated.
Obstacles would be removed.
You would return to your routine—whether by inclination or by design.
And if your loyalties proved misaligned?
That, too, was simply behavior to correct.
Like any other day.
Zandik resumed his work, the soft hum of machinery harmonizing with the quiet certainty that nothing—not Alhaitham, not distance, not your own unknowable nature—would be permitted to degrade the purity of his experiment.
You were an anomaly.
And anomalies, once identified, were never left unattended.
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Zandik did not rush.
Rushing was for amateurs, for people who mistook speed for intelligence. True interference required patience, like inducing organ failure through imperceptible ischemia rather than blunt trauma. A vessel constricted by microns killed just as effectively as a blade, and left far fewer questions.
He worked with that philosophy as the monitors continued their quiet vigil.
You were present on two screens now—walking the eastern courtyard with a stack of documents hugged loosely to your chest, hair half-tied, expression distant. The Akademiya festival banners fluttered overhead, garish and inefficient, their fabric density optimized for aesthetics rather than durability. Zandik noted that as an aside. He always noted such things.
Alhaitham was not with you.
Not yet.
Zandik’s fingers moved over his console, not hacking—such a vulgar term—but correcting. Systems were never secure. They were merely neglected by people who assumed goodwill as a constant. Sumeru Akademiya’s infrastructure was an organism riddled with benign tumors: redundant permissions, overlapping authority chains, legacy protocols no one remembered implementing.
He adjusted three variables.
The first was trivial.
A scheduling conflict introduced into Alhaitham’s docket—not fabricated, merely reframed. A request from a senior researcher, legitimately filed months prior, resurfaced with elevated priority due to a clerical “audit.” Zandik didn’t invent the audit. He allowed the system to believe it had always been there.
The second was subtler.
Resource allocation for festival logistics required cross-departmental approval. Zandik introduced a delay by flagging an inconsistency in reagent procurement—an error small enough to demand verification, large enough to halt progress. Alhaitham’s department was meticulous. He would not ignore it.
The third was the most elegant.
Zandik injected a compliance reminder into Alhaitham’s inbox, routed through an automated ethics review committee. The language was sterile, impersonal, and perfectly legal. Attendance mandatory. Absence would reflect poorly in future evaluations.
Alhaitham valued order.
Zandik exploited it.
He leaned back slightly, eyes flicking to your feed.
You stopped near a stairwell, shifting your weight, glancing at your wrist device. Your brow furrowed—not frustration, but mild confusion. The subtle kind that arose when patterns deviated unexpectedly.
You checked the time again.
Zandik annotated.
Behavioral Response: Subject exhibits mild confusion upon schedule alteration. No distress markers. Likely to adapt without complaint.
He admired that about you.
Your adaptability.
It made you resilient.
It made you dangerous.
Alhaitham appeared at the edge of the frame several minutes later than expected, posture rigid, steps efficient but hurried. You looked up at him, head tilting slightly.
Your lips moved.
Zandik cross-referenced lip motion with predictive linguistics.
“You’re late.”
Alhaitham responded. His jaw tightened briefly—irritation suppressed. He gestured vaguely in explanation. You listened without expression, nodding once.
He handed you a document.
You glanced at it.
Paused.
Then handed it back.
You said something else.
Zandik’s algorithm suggested: “I’ll handle it.”
Alhaitham hesitated.
That hesitation pleased Zandik immensely.
It was the first domino.
Alhaitham spoke again, more firmly this time. His hand lifted as if to insist.
You stepped back.
Not far.
Just enough.
Zandik’s fingers stilled.
Critical Observation: Subject initiates distance when pressed. Autonomy preserved. No overt resistance, but boundary enforced.
Alhaitham exhaled through his nose, frustration leaking through his carefully curated composure. He checked his device again, eyes narrowing.
Zandik smiled faintly.
The man was trapped in a lattice of obligations, each one legitimate, each one inconvenient. A rat maze built of bureaucracy and ethics, where every turn led to another delay.
Alhaitham spoke again.
You shook your head.
Once.
Decisive.
Zandik felt a pleasant tightening in his chest—not emotion, but confirmation.
You were not being taken.
Not today.
Alhaitham left first.
You remained where you were, watching him go, expression unreadable. When he disappeared from the frame, you stood there for several seconds longer than necessary, then shrugged and turned in the opposite direction.
Toward the research wing.
Toward him.
Zandik resumed his work with renewed precision.
On the table before him lay a living subject this time—sedated, restrained, chest rising shallowly beneath mechanical ventilation. Electrodes studded the scalp, mapping neural activity in real time. The experiment was simple: controlled deprivation of sensory input to observe compensatory hallucinations.
He reduced auditory input by increments.
The brain rebelled beautifully.
Neurons fired erratically, cortical regions cross-activating in desperation. The mind abhorred silence. It filled voids compulsively.
Zandik wondered, not for the first time, what your brain would do under such conditions.
He suspected it would not rebel.
He suspected it would observe.
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You entered the building fifteen minutes later.
Security protocols did not flag you. They never did. Zandik had ensured your access privileges remained unrestricted, categorized under so many overlapping exemptions that revoking them would require a committee meeting.
Committees took time.
Time was his.
You appeared on the internal camera feed, walking with your usual lazy gait, eyes half-lidded, shoulders relaxed. You did not hurry.
You never hurried.
Your presence altered the ambient metrics of the lab immediately. Zandik’s instruments did not register it—but he did. The air felt denser, charged in a way he could not quantify.
He dismissed the thought.
Quantification would come later.
You paused outside his lab door.
Zandik did not look up.
He waited.
The door opened.
You leaned against the frame exactly as you always did, invading sterile space with careless familiarity. Your gaze flicked briefly to the restrained subject on the table, then back to him.
“Busy?” you asked.
Your voice was flat.
He noted the absence of Alhaitham’s shadow behind you.
“Yes,” Zandik replied. Truthful. He always preferred that.
You hummed, a noncommittal sound, and stepped inside anyway. Your fingers brushed his sleeve as you passed, unintentional or not—Zandik did not bother categorizing it yet.
You perched on a stool, spinning it slightly, watching him work.
No mention of the festival.
No explanation.
No apology.
Perfect.
Zandik adjusted the sedation levels, eyes never leaving his instruments.
Result: Subject returns voluntarily when external influence removed.
Hypothesis supported: proximity preference exists, though unacknowledged.
He did not feel satisfaction.
He felt confirmation.
That was far more valuable.
Behind him, the restrained subject convulsed slightly as neural feedback intensified. Zandik corrected the parameters without looking.
You watched.
You always watched.
Most people turned away from exposed flesh, from the raw mechanics of suffering. You observed with detached curiosity, head tilted, eyes steady.
Zandik made another note.
Addendum: Subject exhibits no aversion to medical morbidity. Emotional response minimal. Empathy—if present—is internalized, not performative.
He glanced at you at last.
Your eyes met his.
You smiled faintly.
It was not warm.
It was not cold.
It was simply there.
The experiment remained pure.
The obstacle had been neutralized without force, without trace, without even your awareness of interference. Alhaitham would attribute his absence to circumstance, to duty, to bad timing.
You would attribute it to nothing at all.
That was the best outcome.
Zandik returned his attention to the body on the table, increasing the deprivation threshold.
The subject screamed.
You did not flinch.
Zandik thought, distantly, about future tests. More subtle disruptions. More opportunities for you to choose him without ever realizing you had been guided.
Testing loyalties was not cruelty.
It was methodology.
And if, one day, you made an unfavorable decision—
Well.
Behavior could always be corrected.
For now, you were here.
And that was all the data he required.
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Zandik did not look at you when he spoke.
“Busy?”
The word was delivered neutrally, almost lazily, threaded between the soft clicks of instruments and the steady hum of life-support machinery. His hands remained steady, gloved fingers adjusting a micrometer screw by fractions too small for anyone else to care about. The question was not a question. It was a probe. A stimulus presented to observe response.
You reacted exactly as predicted.
You drifted closer.
Not immediately—never immediately—but with that gradual, inevitable gravitation you always exhibited, as though proximity to him were a default state your body returned to once external forces released their grip. You slipped in beside him, shoulder brushing his arm, then leaned fully into his side, arms sliding around his waist with careless entitlement.
Warmth.
Contact.
Zandik logged the sensation without comment.
“Busy?” you echoed, scoffing softly. “Busy is an understatement. I’ve been kidnapped. Repeatedly. Against my will.”
“Hyperbole,” Zandik replied.
You ignored him, pressing your cheek against his shoulder, voice already accelerating. “Alhaitham is a tyrant. A polite tyrant, but still. Do you know how many meetings I’ve been dragged into? How many things I’ve been told are ‘absolutely necessary for the success of the festival’? I don’t even care about the festival. I wanted to nap. Or wander. Or do literally nothing. That’s my brand.”
Zandik hummed once, a low sound of acknowledgment.
You took it as encouragement.
“And he doesn’t stop. He just keeps going, like—oh, here’s another task, here’s another thing, here’s another obligation. I like him, I really do, but man, he’s a slave driver. He schedules people like components. I promise if I hear the word ‘efficiency’ one more time—”
“You’ll what?” Zandik asked mildly.
“Die,” you said flatly. “Just expire on the spot. Collapse dramatically. He’d probably schedule my funeral.”
Zandik allowed a thin exhale through his nose.
You shifted, hugging him tighter, fingers idly clutching at the fabric of his coat. Your voice softened, then sharpened again as your thoughts jumped tracks.
“And it’s not just work. It’s the expectations. Everyone wants something. Everyone wants input. Opinions. Participation. I don’t want to participate. I want to exist. Preferably horizontally. But no, apparently I’m ‘useful.’”
“You are,” Zandik said.
You tilted your head up to look at him. “See? That’s the problem.”
He did not return your gaze.
You laughed, the sound muffled against him, then launched into another tangent without pause. Complaints blurred into observations, observations into philosophical musing, musing into utter nonsense. You talked about the weather, about the way the banners made your head hurt, about how the food stalls smelled wrong this year. You jumped from trivial irritation to existential fatigue with whiplash speed.
Zandik listened.
Or rather, he remained silent while cataloging.
Your speech patterns exhibited heightened verbosity compared to baseline. Likely stress release. The physical affection was increased—your body pressed closer than usual, your grip firmer, your movements restless.
You were compensating.
He allowed it.
“—and I know it sounds stupid,” you continued, voice dropping briefly, “but it feels like I didn’t get to breathe for days. Like I was on rails. Do this, go there, be here. I hate that. I hate not choosing.”
“You choose poorly,” Zandik remarked.
You gasped, pulling back just enough to glare at him. “Excuse you?”
“Empirically,” he added, unfazed.
You huffed, crossing your arms dramatically before immediately uncrossing them to cling to him again. “You’re such an asshole. You know that?”
“Yes.”
“That wasn’t rhetorical.”
“Neither was my response.”
You groaned, burying your face into his shoulder with exaggerated suffering. “Why do I even talk to you?”
“You enjoy being insulted,” Zandik said. “It validates your self-concept.”
You lifted your head, eyes narrowed. “That was uncalled for.”
“Accurate,” he corrected.
You scoffed, then laughed again, the sound bright and incongruous against the sterile horror of the lab. Your laughter echoed off steel and glass, off exposed flesh and surgical instruments.
Zandik noted the contrast.
Your presence did not disrupt his work.
It normalized it.
You rambled on, words spilling freely now that the dam had broken. You complained about people, about expectations, about being tired of being perceived. You drifted into stranger territory—half-formed thoughts about meaning, about boredom, about how everything felt like a game you were overqualified for and underinvested in.
“All I wanted,” you said eventually, voice lighter again, “was to come back here. Sit with you. Not think. Just exist.”
Zandik adjusted a dial.
“And you did,” he said.
“Yeah.” You smiled, bright and unguarded. “I missed you.”
The words landed.
Zandik did not freeze. He did not react outwardly. His heart rate did not change. He did not look at you.
He logged it.
Verbal Affirmation: Subject expresses absence acknowledgment. Emotional valence positive. Potential attachment reinforcement.
He responded the only way he ever did.
“You have poor taste,” he said. “And questionable priorities.”
You recoiled theatrically, hand flying to your chest. “Wow. Just—wow. I bare my soul and you call me stupid.”
“I implied it,” he corrected.
You pouted. Actually pouted. Lips pushed forward, brows knit in mock offense. “You’re cruel.”
“You are dramatic.”
“You’re mean.”
“You are clingy.”
You tightened your hold around him in retaliation. “Say it louder.”
Zandik snorted softly despite himself.
You grinned, triumphant.
You were unusually affectionate today. More tactile. More playful. Your fingers traced idle patterns against his side, your body pressed close, your head resting under his chin as if it belonged there.
Zandik tolerated it.
He always did.
Then, almost absentmindedly, as if adjusting an errant strand of thought rather than hair, he lifted one gloved hand and brushed it lightly over your head.
Barely there.
Minimal contact.
A single stroke.
Your reaction was immediate and visceral.
A soft sound escaped you—not quite a sigh, not quite a hum. Your body melted against him, spine relaxing, fingers curling reflexively into his coat. You tilted your head instinctively into the touch, eyes fluttering shut for a fraction of a second.
Like a cat.
Zandik withdrew his hand at once, returning it to his work as though nothing had happened.
He did not repeat the gesture.
You made a small, dissatisfied noise and pressed closer instead, arms tightening around him as if attempting to anchor yourself physically to his frame.
Zandik allowed it.
He continued working, instruments precise, mind already extrapolating.
Stimulus Response: Light tactile input elicits pronounced relaxation and affiliative behavior. Suggests conditioning potential.
You did not comment on the touch.
You simply stayed.
Cuddled closer.
Content.
Zandik watched the monitors, the data streams, the slow, obedient pulse of his machines. He listened to your breathing, to the faint rustle of fabric as you shifted, to the quiet proof that you were here.
The experiment was back on schedule.
And you, blissfully unaware, had chosen exactly as he intended.
✦ . ⁺ . ✦ . ⁺ . ✦
You were being deliberate today.
Zandik registered it within minutes—not as intuition, not as sentiment, but as deviation. Your baseline affection followed patterns: idle proximity, incidental touch, parasitic warmth while you talked yourself into exhaustion. Today was different. Today you were performing.
You hovered closer than necessary, leaned where you did not need support, poked at him with the casual cruelty of someone who knew exactly how much irritation they could extract without consequence. Your fingers tapped his arm. Once. Twice. Again. You smiled when he did not react.
You were baiting.
Zandik allowed it.
He continued working, eyes on the exposed thoracic cavity before him, ribs spread with a retractor, lungs glistening wetly under surgical light. The patient—alive, sedated, paralyzed—registered stable vitals. Heart rate steady. Blood pressure within acceptable deviation. Pain suppressed chemically, not ethically.
Your voice cut through the sterile rhythm.
“Did you miss me?”
Bright. Too bright. Artificial enthusiasm layered over something sharper.
Zandik did not look at you.
“No,” he said. “Your absence improved the noise-to-silence ratio.”
You gasped.
Audibly. Dramatically. A hand flew to your chest as though struck.
“That’s cruel,” you whined. “I was gone for days.”
“Unfortunately.”
You leaned into his side harder in retaliation, bumping him deliberately. He adjusted his grip without missing a beat, suctioning blood from the surgical field as a vein ruptured under tension.
You grinned.
“Oh, you’re mean today,” you said. “Did you miss me a little?”
“You are persistent,” he replied. “Like a low-grade infection.”
You made an offended sound that bordered on theatrical suffering. “Wow. Comparing me to bacteria now?”
“Bacteria serve a function,” Zandik said.
You slapped his arm lightly. “You’re awful.”
“You are distracting.”
You took that as permission.
You hung off him physically now—arm looped around his waist, cheek pressed against his shoulder, body warm and unashamedly present. You followed him when he shifted, adjusted when he moved, an orbiting mass of soft interference.
Zandik noted it.
Behavioral Shift: Increased physical contact frequency. Intentional provocation detected. Likely affect regulation via antagonistic play.
You poked his side again.
He ignored you.
You poked harder.
Still nothing.
“Hey,” you said. “I’m talking to you.”
“I’m aware,” Zandik replied. “I’m choosing not to engage.”
You narrowed your eyes, clearly offended by the audacity of being ignored. Then, with the petulance of someone who knew they were indulged far more than they should be, you crossed your arms.
“Fine,” you huffed. “If you’re going to be like that—”
You leaned closer.
“—then you have to pet me.”
“No.”
Immediate. Flat. Absolute.
You blinked. “Excuse me?”
“No,” Zandik repeated, adjusting the ventilator settings.
Your mouth fell open. “You can’t just deny me like that.”
“I just did.”
You straightened, incredulous. “You petted me earlier!”
“A mistake,” he said coolly.
You stared at him as though he’d committed a personal betrayal. “You monster.”
“You are not entitled to reinforcement on demand.”
You scoffed. “You sound like a manual.”
“You behave like a poorly trained animal.”
You made an indignant noise and leaned in again, face close to his, eyes bright with mischief. “Pet me.”
“No.”
“Please?”
“No.”
“I’ll be sad.”
“You are always sad.”
You gasped again, louder this time. “That’s—wow. That’s a low blow.”
You became more dramatic with each denial—sighing loudly, slumping exaggeratedly against his side, muttering about emotional neglect and cruelty. Your coping mechanisms were transparent: exaggeration, deflection, humor weaponized to defang vulnerability.
Zandik observed with clinical interest.
Coping Strategy Identified: Subject externalizes emotional bids through humor and provocation. Avoids direct expression by masking with theatrics. Volatility present but non-destructive.
You tilted your head back to look up at him, eyes narrowed thoughtfully.
“Okay,” you said slowly. “Then give me a kiss.”
Zandik paused.
Not his hands. Not his work.
His attention.
For the first time since you’d arrived, he turned his head fully and looked at you.
Not the casual peripheral acknowledgment he usually afforded you. Not the dismissive glance.
A direct stare.
You met it without flinching, chin lifted, expression bright and unapologetic. You were smiling, but your eyes were sharp—calculating, curious, aware.
You knew exactly what you were doing.
Zandik saw it clearly now.
You were testing him.
Not for affection.
For control.
He scoffed softly, the sound edged with disdain, and turned back to his work.
“Ridiculous,” he said. “You mistake tolerance for indulgence.”
You stared at him for a second longer, then groaned dramatically.
“Hey, you’re ignoring me again.”
He did not respond.
You whined louder. “Don’t ignore me!”
Still nothing.
You leaned over his shoulder, peering into his line of sight. “Hey. Hello. I’m right here.”
Zandik adjusted the retractor, exposing more tissue. Blood welled. He suctioned it away.
“You’re so rude,” you muttered, but you didn’t leave.
Instead, you settled back against him, arms wrapping around his torso again, head resting comfortably where it always did. You were quiet for a few moments, your earlier theatrics giving way to simple presence.
Zandik continued working.
He never told you how closely he watched you.
How every shift in your tone, every exaggerated complaint, every attempt to provoke him was logged, analyzed, archived. He never told you how acutely aware he was of your warmth, your weight, the way your breathing synced unconsciously with his when you settled like this.
He never told you because power, once acknowledged, became leverage.
And you would absolutely exploit it.
You already were—instinctively, playfully, without malice.
Zandik would not allow himself to become another variable you could manipulate.
So he denied you.
Ignored you.
Insulted you.
And watched you anyway.
Always.
Because the most dangerous part of you was not your affection.
It was how easily you could make someone want it.
And Zandik would rather dissect himself alive than let you know how deeply you had embedded yourself into his systems.
You hummed softly against him, content despite everything.
The experiment continued.
Uncompromised.
For now.
✦ . ⁺ . ✦ . ⁺ . ✦
You went quiet gradually, the way a system powered down without ceremony.
Your earlier theatrics dissolved into stillness in increments Zandik could chart precisely: the slowing cadence of your speech, the way your grip loosened then tightened again reflexively, your weight settling more fully against him as the last of your energy bled out. You mumbled something—half-formed, slurred by exhaustion—and for a moment he ignored it, assuming it was more nonsense, another thread of your disordered stream of consciousness unraveling into sleep.
Then you said it again, softer.
“I love you.”
Barely audible. Unemphasized. Casual. As though you were commenting on the weather.
“And… good night.”
Your head slipped forward against his chest. Your breathing evened out almost immediately, deep and unguarded, the kind of sleep that arrived only when the body had decided there was nothing left worth staying awake for.
Zandik’s hands stilled.
Not for long. Just long enough to register the stimulus.
He frowned, a minute contraction between his brows, before smoothing his expression back into neutrality. His heart rate did not spike. His respiration did not change. He did not feel anything that could not be classified, compartmentalized, dissected.
Annoyance, perhaps.
Or irritation.
Or—more precisely—cognitive friction.
You said things like that far too easily.
That was the problem.
You spoke affection the way most people spoke filler words, deploying intimacy without cost, without consequence, without any apparent understanding of its weight. “I love you” meant nothing in your mouth because everything meant nothing in your mouth. You treated declarations the same way you treated threats, jokes, promises—interchangeable, disposable, harmless.
Zandik adjusted his posture slightly, shifting you so your neck wouldn’t strain. He did it with the same absent care he applied to stabilizing a specimen mid-procedure, one hand firm at your shoulder, the other guiding your weight until you were draped comfortably against him, limbs lax, head nestled where it would not obstruct his work.
You sighed in your sleep and tightened your arms around him.
A body pillow, effectively.
He allowed it.
He always did.
He resumed working one-handed for a moment, recalibrating a display, then returned to full precision once he confirmed you were properly settled. The lab was quiet now, the late hour stretching long and indulgent. Machines hummed. Fluorescent lights cast their unflattering glow over steel, glass, and exposed flesh.
You had chosen to come here.
Not your dorm.
Not Alhaitham.
Here.
Zandik cataloged the fact with clinical detachment, ignoring the faint, infuriating sense of satisfaction that accompanied it. Satisfaction was irrelevant. Satisfaction implied desire. Desire implied weakness.
This was merely outcome alignment.
Your behavioral trajectory had returned to baseline.
He looked down at you.
Asleep, you were less performative. Your face slackened, the sharp edges of your expression blunted into something deceptively soft. You trusted sleep too easily as well, surrendering consciousness without safeguards, without contingency. Your pulse under his fingers—steady, strong, controlled in ways that defied normal physiology.
You were wrong.
Every metric he had ever taken confirmed it.
Your body did not behave like a human body should. Your homeostasis was too efficient. Your recovery curves too steep. Your immune responses too selective, ignoring trauma that should have triggered cascades of inflammation while reacting decisively to stimuli that barely registered for others.
You were a walking biohazard.
Literally.
Figuratively.
Emotionally.
You drifted through people’s lives, contaminating them with attachment, with affection, with destabilizing warmth, then moved on without consequence. You did not take anything seriously—not danger, not devotion, not even yourself. You did whatever you wanted, whenever you wanted, guided by boredom and impulse rather than responsibility.
Selfish.
Irresponsible.
Intriguing.
Zandik watched the subtle rise and fall of your chest, noting the way your breathing synchronized unconsciously with his. He adjusted you again, minimally, ensuring your weight was evenly distributed. You responded instinctively, pressing closer, a faint sound escaping you that could almost have been contentment.
He ignored it.
He always ignored it.
Your words echoed anyway, an irritant lodged beneath the surface of his thoughts.
I love you.
You said it the same way you said everything else. Carelessly. Generously. Without hierarchy.
To you, he was not special.
That grated on him more than it should have.
To you, he was family, perhaps. Or a toy. Or a particularly interesting object you enjoyed returning to. A pet to poke, tease, cling to when it suited you. You did not love him in the way people meant love. You did not mean anything in the way people meant meaning.
That made you dangerous.
Zandik preferred systems with defined parameters. Affection without boundaries was a variable he could not yet constrain.
He considered, not for the first time, how easily he could open you.
The thought did not horrify him.
It thrilled him.
Your anatomy would be exquisite. He was certain of it.
He imagined the incision—precise, minimal, following natural cleavage lines to reduce scarring. A midline sternotomy would grant optimal access, though he suspected your internal architecture would deviate from expectation. Perhaps reinforced connective tissue. Perhaps vascular redundancies.
Perhaps something entirely new.
He would take samples.
Blood first. Then tissue. Then organs, if necessary.
He would examine you without your knowledge, of course. Consciousness would complicate results. Memory would contaminate behavior.
He preferred clean data.
He imagined the way your cells would respond under magnification, how your regenerative capacity might manifest at the microscopic level. He imagined mapping your neural pathways, tracing the loci of your dissociation, isolating the mechanisms that allowed you to remain so detached, so unburdened by consequence.
Excitement coiled in his chest, cold and precise.
You stirred slightly in your sleep, face pressing more softly against him, fingers flexing in a comforting reflex.
Zandik did not move.
He would not allow himself to react.
You were an anomaly. A specimen. A fascinating, infuriating contradiction wrapped in human skin and careless affection. You were kind in ways you never acknowledged, destructive in ways you never noticed.
You said “I love you” because it cost you nothing.
One day, he would teach you the price.
For now, he adjusted his coat around you, anchoring you more securely, and returned his attention to his work. The night stretched on, indulgent and quiet, the lab a sanctuary of order amid the chaos you embodied.
You slept.
Zandik worked.
And beneath the calm, beneath the neutrality he wore like a second skin, anticipation sharpened to a blade.
Soon, he would cut you open.
And finally understand what, exactly, had the audacity to call itself human.
𝐆𝐨𝐝'𝐬 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐭 